now its 1224 and i'm stuck at home updating my blog!! wad a day... i seriously need to go out and do some shopping... the trip to genting is in 3 day... will be leaving on st. francis xavier's actual feast day... so glad that the celebration is one day before... for the whole of next week life would be extra hectic... i mean after coming back frm genting the next day would be zoa's b'dae and i gotta wake up so early... i dun mind cos she's like my best girlfriend and zoa if u read this i'm so gonna buy u a big big pressy!! or do u want 'JUPITER' to be ur pressy!! lol secret code!! i would love to have 'MARS' as my christmas pressy!! lol could u help me get it??

jus today i got a scolding, a slap and a few shoes raining down on me... and who did it?? ya my mom... i mean duh who else would do that... all cos i wore smt i should not wear... then i got banned frm going to church again for two weeks... cos i took the game boy away frm my brother... i mean i'm not in the wrong la... he played the game boy for such a long time and the batt went flat... then my mom said i could not go for mass and i was like i'm not in the wrong... so i could not agree to it... then now she wants to let me go to the tridum and i told her 11 will end and she was like i'll think abt it... i'm like wad de fuck la... seriously

one year ago i swore i'd never like any guy anymore... why did a freaking big time flirt ever have to come by?? why?? i mean like why did i ever have to like like him?? its so stupid cos he doesn't even care... so of course i have to act like i didn't care too... but the truth is i care so much... when i try to forget him it seems so easy at first... but as the days past it appears to be an impossible task... 'like wad so hard abt forgetti getting a flirt' zoa have been telling me... and i'm like its not cos of the fact that he is a flirt that i can't forget him... it cos of smt else i like abt him that i can't forget him... and further more i don't wanna change the flirt cos its him... like i jus wanna keep him the way he is now... which is hard to deal with... cos it is still hard to see him flirt with girls in front of me... i mean its not that hard anymore but its still hard... if u get wad i mean.. lol

we had so much fun at mad's house last thursday ... i mean cos like everyone was there and like the girls got dunked into the pool by the guys... zoa and i arrived there at like 1130 and we were watching disney playhouse with mad's little brother until the rest came... then we ate a little and then we went down zoa and i went down asap cos we wanted to hide frm the guys so as not to get dunked... i could have sworn i heard brandon and john's voice but then after squarting for such a long time we decided to stand up and head towards the pool... then we saw the three guys juming into the pool and we were like how the hell did they get pass us?? lol... anyway the guys (john, brandon, gareth and aaron) dunked kathy first... zoa and i were like holding on to each other like crazy... we were like don't touch her and don't touch me!! kinnda thing... then we saw zoa's crush... like we didn't expected to see him but he came with his friends and we didn't even know if he stayed there or not... zoa and i we were like OMG isn't that edward and we turned to look at each other and we were like its him... ltr we literally ran away frm the guys like we really ran luh... and after that we decided to ward in the pool... and brandon came and pull my whole body into the pool... i was like man those guys are strong... like i always thought they were like skinny and had no strength... lol... and zoa was busy protecting her hair... she was like 'DON'T TOUCH MY HAIR... NOT MY HAIR...!!' lol we had so much fun playing ball... and we had a basket ball in the pool and a soft ball... the guards came and confiscated the basket ball and we were like find... its reasonable... but then ltr they confiscated the soft ball and we were like WTH... and mad and zoa were wearing shirt and i was the only one in a bikini and how funny to see the two of them scrammbling under the bridge when the guards came... and i sat outside smiling at the guard looking like an idiot... after everything we went back to bath and went to mass... on the way to church john had to sit on brandon's lap... and like they were so super hilarious cos like john's got a sharp butt and he was sitting on brandon so ya... and brandon was like .... ' john jus stop moving and keep it that way' kinnda thing... lol it was fun la...
after mass naomi, zoa and i went back to mad's house to have dinner... then after that we went down to the pool and we intended to have moon tan but there were some irritating guys in the pool so we decided to go shoot hoops... and as we were walking off the guys were like 'OI wait wait... wait for us...' and we jus kept walking... then they shouted ' i like ur mama...' and we were like okay... right... and we said softly hey i like ur daddy... and then they said smt so shocking ' i like ur boobs' and we were like okay i like grapes but in ur case its rasins... lol.. we were totaly bimbotic luh... like to the max... then after shooting afew hoops the guys came and we were like okay lets go kinnda thing... then we sat under the stars and talking abt stuffs and then mad called thomas and like ya like he was in china and ya... then the guys walked pass us again... they were like saying to each other ' oi ur girlfriend'... then naomi's phone started ringing and we didn't know... and one guy was like ur phone is ringing and we were like yea right... and he was like seriously and we were like oh okay... lol... then like after they were 1 meter away frm us we were like laughing out loud cos their shorts were so small and tight... and they were like dun laugh so loud la... and i was like 'HAHA' like super loudly... and one of them were like 'HEHE' and then i was like 'WADEVER' we were like literally screaming at each other... lol... so much fun la...

wooo 16 days to overseas trip... woo can't wait... i mean its gonna be so much fun... shopping shopping and more shopping... imagin all the things there man... wow... i mean all the stuff that i can buy... wooo... lol can't wait for the trip...

for the pass few days, life has been so hactic!! i mean my mom ban me frm going to church and stuff!! and i guess life was never ever as perfect as i thought... for days and weeks and months, this persons name has been ringing through my ears... no matter how i try to stop it... its jus so hard... evertime i try, i seem to fail over and over again!! in the end i grow to have a deeper feeling for this person... and the only way to hide this, is to stop communicating with him... so frm the time this happened i did not talk or msg him... its hard... but i jus had to deal with it
even if it hurts...


saying i love you
is not the words i want to hear from you
how easy it would be to show me how you feel
more then words