wooo.... its been kinnda long since i've last posted. kinda got really into my studies and stuff. feeling kinda sad now... very empty like i've just lost something so imp to me. things have really really been tough and yea i thought you were my fairytale a dream when i'm not sleeping. that wishes on a star really do exist, but once again lynnlong is proven WRONG YET AGAIN!!! go on gloat everybody... i'm good. i just dunno how to express how i really feel in words but i'm trying... ever felt like you have a horrible ulcer in you mouth and like someone comes unexpectedly in the dead of the night and holds you down and rubs salt really really hard and roughly on the ulcer. and you can't really do much but just cry and try to get yourself out of this mess. thats how my heart feels now i guess. theres like this super uber huge hole bleeding and i just can't see how everything can seem so beautiful when here i am hurting so much inside. i just wish i can stop and rewind time. but even then maybe i can't change anything too. now all i can do is just stand bare infront of god cos he knows me best and all but sometimes no matter how hard i try... this human part of me just feel very helpless and hopeless like even god doesn't care for me. right i think i gtg back to studying.........
LONGS