YOU HAVE FOUGHT THE GOOD FIGHT
[Dedicated to Thaddeus Cheong]
composed & written by Trevor Nerva & Jonathan Wong

You are our brother,
You are our friend
All the times we've shared together
We wish they'd never end
Now that you're gone
We will miss your presence dearly
With each passing day
We'll think of you and pray...

You have fought the good fight
You have run and finish the race
You have kept the faith
Now you see God face to face
Now you see God face to face

Peace be with you,
as you make your journey home
And whene'er we pray together
We'll feel your spirit too
We'll still feel your smile
Through your warm embraces
You have touched our lives
And hearts in a special way
And when the night has ended
We'll see the dawn come through
Our brokenness all mended
We'll see God's love shining through

We will fight the good fight
We will run and finish the race
We will keep the faith
We will see God face to face
Then we'll see God face to face

yesterday was thaddeus's funeral or rather the last 100m dash to eternal life. at 330 everyone was gathered at church for the mass. many people turned up in pink which was thaddeus's fav colour. in fact the whole church was filled. it was the most crowded funeral mass i've ever been too. i remember crying during homily because of what father said abt thaddeus. all the way until mass ended we were still crying. 5 buses were outside ready to bring us to mandai and when we were at the viewing room ben was crying really badly and i was with her all the way. i couldn't help but cry too cos it hurt to see my friend so sad. as thad finished the last part of the 'race' everyone in the room started clapping and cheering ' go thaddeus do' for a whole minute. i felt so touch. then once more the coffin started to move inwards and ben lurged forward all i could do was to hold her tight and cry with her. she was so unstable when we were moving out to go back to his house. then on the way back i held ben's hands and i finally spoke up abt what had happened earlier. she ended up laughing. why do people always laugh at me...hmmm... okay... by the time we got off the bus... well thats another story... RIP Thaddeus Cheong. you'll be missed always. watch over us all.
loves

today's post is dedicated to thaddeus and his family esp ben and all. just wanna say that when i was at your house, i saw people who were all so close to you trying to be strong but sometimes human power fails and they end up crying. it really shows how much you, thaddeus, you were missed.
when i was hugging ben i felt her shaky arms resting on my sweaty back and she was sobbing. the youth group was there with her and almost all were crying. i closed my eyes thinking how life can be so meaningful when we live it like how thaddeus lived his. tears rolled down my cheek as i thought about how shitty my life was. well at least thaddeus went with pride, doing what he loved. but me, will i go with pride? will i be doing what i love when i go home. i was crying because of this and at the same time cos i feel ben's pain. i lost a sister at 7. as i was returning home from school i remember asking daddy how the baby was. 'baby's gone.' daddy answered in a tone i never heard before. 'huh go where? will she come back?' i ask innocently. my dad just shook his head and i knew from then on i'll never see my lil' sister again. when i got home mommy didn't look sad or whatever she just smiled took my hands and just took me for dinner and my bath.
i didn't ask anything or say anything. i didn't cry nor did i smile. i just didn't feel like doing anything. as years went on, i remember once i made mommy really mad and ahyi was talking to me andi didn't know how we came upon this topic but she told me that mommy will cry on that day on every year. talk about knowing my mom well.


well todays lesson is cherish all you have today and you won't regreat. hold it close to your heart and it'll always be there.

love you lil' sis

yesterday we celebrated beverly's birthday and it was superb...aaron asked me the night before to buy her cake and i could have done it if not because i had to help with charismatic canteen. in the end thomas had to go buy the cake. well anyway, when we brought the cake into the room beverly was like shocked and she thought it was someone elses birthday and was clapping away. then i was like ' it for you beverly you dummy' she was like oh and she began laughing. man was so nice to see her expression. it was the shocked and happy at the same time kinnda face. lol. well after that i was suppose to go with tata and rinn to some concert but at the last minute daddy said we could not go. so we ended up disappointing tata. which was something i never wanted to do. sorry tata. love you anyway. so i went to julia's house to play pool with a few guys and we had to leave the pool room cos someone booked the room. so we tried to get julia to go to the club to play but she refused so we ended up going to her house to chill. we had fun watching pirates number 2. oh oh and her mom makes super good food. and coffee too. i wanted to watch the part where swan made out with sparrow but stupid thomas heng dunno how to forward and missed the part. so i went back at about 4+ and mommy was watching jingshun which she watched so many times already. i ended up sleeping lol... woke up for dinner at about 9 and went back to sleep...

planning for another fishing trip again next tuesday, freaking afraid i'll get burnt again, didn't like the other one cos until now its still peeling and i look like i have some sickness or whatever. freaking out cos of that. lol, but the next trip would definately be better cos like we're gonna be more prepared and mommy is gonna make some food i mean not like we didn't have food the other time but ahyi brought food for us and we had to wait so long for it. lol water was another issue too. we had to go to the resturant to buy drinks, i didn't go i was busy fishing, lol.only the guys went and our crab trap got stuck three times can you believe it. corinne's fishing line got stuck in some people's trap and another time it got stuck in the rocks. unlucky hey. lol and anyway gareth threw away our crabs poor thing. lol

its been 12 days since holidays started and i've been doing math math math and more math. shoot i've been doing so much math that i've finished all my holiday homework... impressive hey... lol... and just for the record, i came home yesterday and found out my house was actually almost burned down... cos gabriel 'didn't see and smell' the smoke and couldn't hear our neighbour knocking on our door cos there was so much smoke. i came home and the house smelled like some burned shit, and until now it still does... dumb ass...