now its 5.02pm which means its 4days and 6 hours and 58 mins left to the first n paper. man its super stressful. i mean i've got so much on my mind now, zoa studies, family and so many others. talkin about zoa. i realised how much hurt she must feel now all because of some guy. i mean she could have prevented it, it was all in her hands. now thinking back i should have tried harder. up till now i haven told her anything and i feel guilty. i should have been there for her. i should have tried harder to make her stop whatever she was doing. i don't know why is it that last time when i ask her a few questions she would deny them and now she admits. i wonder why is she doing this to herself. firstly its not fair and secondly its not right. even if it means getting insulted by anyone i've gotta try. at least i've tried and i won't regret it. i can see deep down inside she is hurt and upset but she just keeps on smiling and telling me and cherie that she's fine. just in the bus today after zoa left cherie and i were talking. we recalled how we saw many changes in her like the before and after kinnda thing and now she's changing again. i have to admit it the zoa now is definatly happier and the zoa i really wanna hang out with. *girlfriend if you need me, i'll just be a phone call away. i'll try to pick up the phone. lol do well for n's. love ya.*

Without love
Life is like the seasons with
No summer
Without love
Life is rock 'n' roll without
A drummer
Darling, i'll be yours forever
'Cause I never wanna be
Without love
Darling, never set me free
No, i ain't lyin'
Never set me free, darling,
No, no, no!!
In my ivory tower
Life was just a hostess snack
But now i'm so in love with you
i'm never going back

'Cause without love
Life is like a beat that you can't follow
Without love
Life is doris day at the Apollo
Darling, i'll be yours forever
'Cause i never wanna be
Without love
So darlin never set me free

Oh, I'm yours forever
Never set me free
No, no, no!

Darling, i've got to break out
So that i can get my hands on you

And boy, if i can't touch you
and i'm gonna lose control

Darling, you're my black white knight
I've found my blue-eyed soul

Sweet freedom is our goal

'Cause without love
Life is like a prom that won't invite us
Without love
Life's getting my big break and laryngitis
Without love
Life's a '45' when you can't buy it
Without love
Life is like my mother on a diet

Like a week that's only mondays
Only ice cream never sundaes
Like a circle with no center
Like a door marked "do not enter!"

Darlin i'll be yours forever
'Cause i never wanna be
Without love
now you've captured me
without love
I surrender happily
without love
Oh darling never set me free
no no no
I ain't lying
never set me free
no no no
no i don't wanna live
without love
Darlin you have best believed me,
never leave me
without love
Without Love (edited)- Hairspray

watch hairspray on saturday. its totally awesome i mean seriously zac is super cute his like the omg kinnda thing. lol but now i'm so back to the studying kinnda mood and i hate it. help me someone help me!!

exactly one week to the 1st paper of n's, somehow i'm like super scared but i dunno what to do. i know i'm not stupid or slow, i'm just lazy. gosh hate that word. i feel i can't do ss and chinese. and i'm worried i can't do my english well enough. i feel like i'm not putting enough effort not enough time. i'm like super hopeless. parents are out of town and want me to take care of kids and studies. how?? how?? why is it that they don't understand my stress. i don wanna go to ite. never. PERIOD. there is no way am i gonna step in there. put it this way i'll rather jump of the building than go to ite or retain. can you imagin the shame?? can you imagin the time wasted?? i just hate talking about studies or the stress i'm feeling, cos this other feeling inside which is something like feeling like crying comes so strongly. sometimes i feel like going back to cut myself. but i know its not the right way cos its stupid. there should be other ways of handling stress. DUH you fool. i wish i were a clever person and never need to worry about stress or studies or relationship problems.